"Isn't this what we all live for?"

"OK, I'm thinking the 30 or 40 people I've invited to this 'blogging' attempt at creativity are comatose and possibly brain-dead (Sparky & Erin, I really do appreciate your support, as I believe you're the only ones who really understand the realities of an emotionally impaired, struggling artist)...but the rest of you must be so wrapped up with important commitments to fast-paced complex lives, you've completely forgotten what the definition of fun is...or you're too busy weighing your gold...or, once again, you're locked in the study and passed out on the  keyboard next to an empty high-ball glass and crack pipe...or you're out in the carport sniffing the leather in the new Escalade...or you're late for a pedicure and dinner date with those corporate executives from upstairs..or you're 'tied up' watching the latest porn on the new 60-inch master suite flat-screen...or, perhaps you think I'm so utterly without creative skill that it couldn't possibly be worth your while to drop in and comment, heaven forbid...or my computer art experiment has once again fallen on deaf ears and eyes.
(realistically of course, this last one makes the most sense)...regardless of the answer, I'm very disappointed in almost all of you, because so many this past year have requested I share more of my pictures, but I must say, reciprocity is so important in this kind of experiment, so very important...actually I'm so disappointed right now, going away for awhile is my only respite, taking pictures for my own amusement in an attempt to reclaim my sanity and have some real fun again.  This is all just too taxing for me, really, I've given it my all, and since I will soon have to disconnect my computer apparatus and suspend this so-called important activity of attempting to share a piece of my creative side upon request.  My sensibilities and proper upbringing prevent me from public-ally typing a couple of expletives that I know you all know, spirited words that express my current sentiments quite well.  You all know what they are and I want you to ponder them, picture them, close your eyes and hear them, and may you actually utter them the next time you find yourself staring at the mirror (5 seconds from now?) and imagine me serving them up to you...thanks for nothing, so far...cp